Friday, February 27, 2009

My Head Hurts

Too much. That's how I feel this morning. Too much of what you ask? Everything. Good, bad, happy, sad. Just too much feeling this week. It makes my head hurt. And, I'm feeling tired.

In no particular order:
  • Princie is giving me a huge run for my money. I mean H-U-G-E!!!
  • We received official word that our move will be to Georgia. HOORAY...sooooo much closer to family, we are very happy about this news!
  • The preschool where I work is closing at the end of the school year. Because we are moving, it doesn't impact me as far as a job is concerned. But, I'm now watching my co-workers (some of whom I love dearly) face unemployment. They do this while keeping their chins up, and keeping smiles on their faces. When you work with children, that's all you can do. But, it feels like a thick fog has settled. It's sad and draining for all of us. Stress levels are high, and hearts are heavy.
  • One of my preschoolers is very ill. Right now, that's all I can say, but it isn't good news. I love this boy. I love his family. I saw his mother yesterday. She told me I "will go down in history as his first crush". My heart is breaking. I'm serious, my heart is actually hurting. I hate this.
  • I have told you that I love easily. The greatest blessing I have found in blogging has to be the connections I have made. Connections that span the globe. It is unbelievable to me how blessed I am. Kind and amazing souls brought together by the greatest loss and pain imaginable to a mother. It is truly a wonder that such joy can come from such suffering. Thank you ladies, I love you.

So, I'm feeling a need to refuel. I think I'll do that this weekend. Get myself recharged and ready to rumble with the likes of Pelosi and her coworkers. What? Surely you didn't think I've gone completely soft, did you? Peace out Snarkettes.

22 comments:

Valsy said...

The deeper that sorrow carves into your being, the more joy you can contain.

Kahlil Gibran

Loving you. Can't wait to see you in Georgia. :)

KC Mom said...

I'm so sorry your little boy-friend is suffering. I hate to see the babies suffer. It definately will be something I'll want to discuss with HF. And I'm so sorry your heart is hurting. It really is a physical thing...and the more you love, I think the more it hurts. It's a good sign that you love a lot.

Georgia is great news. When would you go? Where in Georgia?

Sue said...

I'm so sad to hear about the serious illness of one of "your" kids. My daughter always calls the children in her class "her kids" and gets very attached to them, which is why she is such a great teacher. The whole thing must be even harder in an atmosphere where everyone around you is already mourning the school itself.

I liked your friend's quote. (Thank you, Valsy!) It's true, isn't it? Life surely has a lot of colors.

I'm sending hugs your way and hope you have a restful weekend.

=)

La Yen said...

We find out in a few months when we will be in Georgia--either next April, or in 2 years...

Rachel T. said...

Im sure the South is very happy to get their Snarky Belle back. The South has not been the same. Im sorry you are going through so much, hopefully this weekend will provide the needed R&R for you to refuel, recharge and redirect. Good Luck, we love you!

karen said...

Oh Natalie... so sorry about the little boy's illness. You'd like to not hurt, but that would mean you don't love, and that would be worse. As far as lay-offs - my company is facing more of them now too. I'm just keeping my head down, working as hard as I can, and hoping for the best. But it's scarey out there. And your little guy - he's just being a little guy. Hang in there and remain steadfast - I know you will. It will pass just as suddenly as it began. I had one of those *challenging* little boys once too. And now he's an amazing young man. Take heart, my friend. Lots of love to you and congratulations on your move closer to home!

mom said...

There are people in this world who were born to teach...that, of course, would be one of the many categories in which you would fall.
What makes those people even more wonderful, is when they were also born to love and be loved. Again, category in which you fall.

I, too, am so sorry about your little friend...I am sorry that you are sad. We will pray and I know you know that.

"Princie" problem...the wall, remember the wall....now would probably be a good time. :) Maybe you need your own.

8 hours...just 8 hours...oh my gosh, I feel like you will be just around the corner. I cannot believe it, I am so happy.

I love you....

Shauna said...

My heart is with you and this little boy. Hang in there snarky, I am with you girl!! Too bad we can't refuel with an ice cream together and a new sassy outfit..the best cure for the sore heads.

I am LoW said...

IN the Savannah area, by chance?

Laretha said...

Okay, I cried just reading your blog today. Just for how tired you must be, which seems mostly emotional, which I can totally relate to. Also for this boy who is ill. Jesus knows who he is and I will pray for a miracle. I believe in miracles!

I love Georgia!

May you be touched by the amazing hand of the Lord who loves you, may He give you strength and joy and peace.

xoxo - L

caitsmom said...

I've been reading "The Mercy Papers" and the author writes about how her heart has grown painfully too large. You're post reminded me of this statement. I know that feeling of the heart physically hurting for emotional pains. Sending (((hugs))) and love to your student and his mother; hoping they both survive their trials.

Mommy (You can call me OM) said...

Let us know what you did to refuel upon your return.
I'm so sorry to hear about the little preschooler. I'm sure you love him.
How far will you be from home when you move to GA? I'm happy for you that you'll be back in the South.
I'll be praying for the little preschool boy.

jen said...

Your last few blog entries and comments on mine have made me worry about you, my new friend. Don't let life get you too discouraged and down. Sometimes we're at the bottom of the canyon, and that just means it's time to find a new walking stick and get moving.
Here's to finding that new stick.
Any way I can help, I'd do it.

Sue said...

Thanks as always for your comment on my blog, Natalie. I'm responding to it here just in case you don't happen to check out the comments for that post again.

Anyway, you said "Wow," and that's just how the whole thing hit me. A true epiphany, and it has come at a time when I really need it!

I'm glad it hit you similarly, and I want to add that I did see and hear Pres. Monson's talk in a whole new way. (More about that in tomorrow's post...which I have been waiting all week to write.)

Ty and Jacki Hanks said...

When you guys actually move you need to update us with your info! You maybe moving closer to family...but still not closer to us! You know I have gotten a ton more yummy recipes and am always ready for someone to bring it to...
I am sorry you had a sad day. You should take a day off and go to Applebees and go get the apple chimis we had that one night in KC...so yummy!!! I miss ya!

karen said...

I feel like an idiot - "Princie" is your DAUGHTER. So sorry - that's what I get for trying to blog at work, and I just now noticed the "Cast of Characters" on the side of your blog. Please forgive me for being blind and hurried. You will live through this, however. I've always felt that having a strong spirit is a GOOD thing. The training of them is a challenge, but once they've got the idea, no one will ever be able to talk them into anything they don't feel right about. She is no weakling follower, so take heart and stand your ground!

fung family said...

Hey, that's good news about Georgia! Augusta? That is only about an easy hour away from Columbia, SC. We will have to get together for lunch!! Can't wait.
It really breaks my heart to see children suffer. It amazes me how well they endure it, though. They are so resilient and innocent. They haven't been calloused by life experiences and bad choices. I hope your little buddy gets better.

mom said...

Hope you have been able to re-charge and renew.
I think your heart was hurting more than your head....

We are truly addicted....I, for one, am in line waiting for another glass of intoxicating "Snarky-ade"...

Pour us a tall one, sista!

Sue said...

Just read from Karen that "Princie" is your daughter. LOL. Well, now...that's a whole different kettle of fish!

Sorry for being such a dope.

heehee

Natalie said...

No dopes, no idiots. Princie does sound like a nickname for a little Prince. But, her daddy gave her that nickname because she prances around like a little princess, but is sassy enough to be a little pixie too.

Katie Hatch said...

Hi Natalie-I'm Karen's daughter and have started reading your blog too. I've enjoyed seeing your comments on my mom's blog and thought I'd leave you one myself. Hope your head gets better ;-) I used to work at a nursing home and fell in love with all the elderly and very often had to deal with losing them, so I know how you feel!

little jill said...

I've always wanted to live in Georgia.


Lucky

p.s. my word verification word is:

coisties

I don't know what they are but the sound of it is grossing me out.