Thursday, September 25, 2008

Thoughts of Victoria

Victoria Christina Anderson
September 25, 1996
Fly, fly little wing
Fly beyond imagining
The softest cloud, the whitest dove
Upon the wind of heaven's love
Past the planets and the stars
Leave this lonely world of ours
Escape the sorrow and the pain
And fly again.
Fly, fly precious one
Your endless journey has begun
Take your gentle happiness
Far too beautiful for this
Cross over to the other shore
There is peace forevermore
But hold this mem'ry, bittersweet,
Until we meet.
Fly, fly do not fear
Don't waste a breath, don't shed a tear
Your heart is pure,your soul is free
Be on your way, don't wait for me
Above the universe you'll climb
On beyond the hands of time
The moon will rise, the sun will set
But I won't forget
Fly, fly little wing
Fly where only angels sing
Fly away, the time is right
Go now, find the light

This song, by Celine Dion, beautifully expresses how my family views the brief time we had with Victoria. How blessed we are that our precious daughter did not have to "waste a breath" or "shed a tear". All she ever knew of this Earth was love, pure and sweet.

My husband & I, along with others who wanted her to stay longer, were relentless in our pleadings (begging on many days) with Heavenly Father. From the very instant we received her diagnosis, until the moment of her delivery, we were fervent in our efforts. For many long years I felt that He had rejected me, turned a blind eye to our hoping. Now I know it was just that He and Victoria had other plans for her. I like to think she heard us, but she knew what was right and best; therefore, she stuck to the plan...Never letting even her parents' pleadings distract her.

Well, I wouldn't want anything less from my daughter. That is what parents want, right? We pray for our children to know the plan, know what is right and best, and never veer from that course. So I guess in reality, Heavenly Father gave me exactly what I wanted. Thank You, thank You, thank You....and who, in a million lifetimes, could have imagined I would ever be able to say that?


Jared said...

Today I feel especially close to Victoria through you. Our daughter is definitely aware of your quiet strength and enduring compassion.

MOM said...

Exactly what a mother would want from her daughter....I know. I have a daughter who never lets my dreams, my hopes, my wishes down. A daughter who "sticks to the plan" even when the pain is unbearable.
Victoria's "special place" is beautiful today with the colors of the earth tied in bouquets.
I love you....and as one would expect sweet Jennifer remembered, again.

Kim said...


RitterB's said...

Nat, Thanks for sharing these most intimate thoughts with us. Today I have grown spiritually by reading your sweet testimony. I too,look forward to the day when we can be with the one we love so dearly beyond the veil. Until that day I am grateful we have friends and family here to endure with! Love ya tons honey buns!

Anonymous said...

Someone needs to send this somewhere to be published by somebody!
Think of the people who this beautiful tribute and the inspiring words of hope and faith could possibly touch.

Shauna said...

Hey, I have been thinking about you this last week and then tonight I stumbled upon your blog. I miss you and think of you often and hope you are well. My thoughts are with you. Shauna Utz

Anonymous said...

Every time I see or hear the name Victoria, I think of your sweet little girl. Thanks for sharing this beautiful memory.


Ty and Jacki Hanks said...

That is the sweetest post! You all are so wonderful! It is so neat to hear your affection toward your baby! :)

colleen said...

You are a Great Mother and one TUFF "snarky Belle"!