Today my little friend passed away. When death rears its ugly head, I'm quickly reminded of just how selfish I can be. He is okay now. I know it. He's no longer in pain, no longer suffering. And for that, I am grateful. But, I'm devastated. I'm hurt and disappointed. My heart breaks for all of us who are left behind, who no longer have the pleasure of being graced by his presence on this Earth. I do not worry and fret over what happens after this life. I am not afraid of death. I'm afraid of the pain it leaves in its wake...the feeling that your chest has been ripped open and your heart shredded.
And most importantly, what about his parents and two sisters? I feel physically ill as I think of the days that await them. I don't even have words for the aching I feel for them.
Do you think maybe my Victoria was one of many awaiting this precious little guy's return? Is it possible that they could share a hug, and know of my love for them? I believe so.
There is a sacredness in tears.
They are not a mark of weakness,
but of power.
They speak more eloquently
than 10,000 tongues.
They are the messengers
of overwhelming grief,
of deep contrition,
and of unspeakable love.
-Washington Irving
23 comments:
I'm so sorry but grateful they have you to share in their grief. You have had great experience to help you prepare for this. I'm just so sorry.
I'm so sorry Natalie. My heart literally aches for you and for his family, their heartache will be acute. Life is so hard.
This is terribly sad news to hear. I know your friendship will be a comfort to them. But you're right; the family has some hard days ahead.
I will keep them in my prayers. And you, of course.
So sorry to hear that. Life just really presents hard lessons. Hopefully we take the opportunity to learn.
I'm so sorry Natalie.
Sending you love.
xxx
I feel their pain, and yet I am grateful that they have you to help them through their dark days ahead. All of them and you are in my prayers. We love you.inge
Oh Natalie.. I am so sorry. I feel deep sorry for your loss and the loss of this family. It's a painful experience.. You will be mentioned in my prayers often. <3
I am so very sorry. I will keep this family in my prayers too, and echo the feelings of others--they are lucky to have a friend in their corner can offer a unique perspective and helping hand at this horrible time. No one can emphasize quite like you on a lot of tough issues!
I, too, am just so sorry...how incredibly hard that must be. You know me, I won't let myself think too long about it...that is what makes it even harder, his family cannot "choose" to "not think about it."
Reminds me why we are to "mourn together." I pray somehow the thoughts and the prayers will help heal their broken hearts and yours.
I love you.
What a unimaginable loss! I am at a loss for words, I do know that I will hold mine a little tighter today. All my love...Shauna
I am so sorry. That another family has begun this most difficult journey breaks my heart.
Oh Natalie - I'm so sorry for this family and for you. I ache for the mother and father and sisters who will have to carry on without him. I am so hopeful that Victoria was there to welcome him. That Washington Irving quote is one of the best - thanks for reminding us of the sacredness in tears.
Awww this is so sad and a relief all at the same time! ((hugs))
I'm so sorry for your loss and that of his family. I will keep you all in my prayers.
So sorry, Natalie. How fortunate you were to have known him for the short time he was here. I'll remember you and his family in my prayers.
I am so sorry for this family and for your broken heart too. I am sure that your sweet daughter is welcoming him. I will keep you all in my prayers.
Natalie, I'm so very sorry for your and your friend's loss. My top question for the powers that be when I reach (?) Heaven - children are so innocent, please explain why.
I'm sorry for their loss and yours. I can't even begin to imagine.
And, yes, I totally believe that your sweet daughter is there to greet him as are many other loving arms.
:-(
between your post and cheryls i am a sobbing mess.
i'm so sorry for your loss. children should never go before their parents.
love you,
l
Sorry Lovey
I'm so sorry Natalie. I am just so sorry. **HUG**
Oh...I am so sorry, dear friend...praying for you and for his family...
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